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so i'm light headed and bored
was meant to hang out with nick today but i don't think that'll happen
got dog tags so now im an army bitch
new photos with my boy to post when i get a chance to scan them
DUANEY WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU AND WHY WONT YOU ANSWER YOUR DAMN PHONE OR MESSAGES YOU CUNT?!?!?!
You pick three people- I have to choose one to marry, one to push off a cliff and one to have sex with. <== better do that somewhere in your reply to this post or i shall castrate you with a rusty fork...
West Coast kicked Brisbane by 70 points IN BRISBANE. oh we are SO much better than everyone haha
++my bum crack is becomming somewhat of a crevas (crevass?)... is that a bad thing? it feels kinda hot. ANYWAYS....
you know what? dad's an asswipe. seriously. he's such a fucking cunt. was MEANT to play basketball tuesday night but we got into a massive fight in the car. he then decided to pull over, hit me and scream at me for half and hour. So i missed basketball and i hate him for it. I also hate him for trying to push me inbto doing stuff that i don't want to do and for rubbing his every tiny fucking success in my face. So here's something i wrote Tuesday night when we got back from our drive [[edit: i was on a two hour train ride the second i got home cause i had to get out of here]];
you dont have to scream
ive heard it all before
how im such a fucking failure
could've amounted to so much more
with expectations set so high
and a conscience in its place
every time you yell
i cover up
my dirty fucking face
im your daughter
im a failure
im nothing compared to you
but im your daughter
dont you love me?
isnt that what fathers supposed to do?
dont you sit there
dont you tell me
that the world is harsh and tough
you think i dont know that?
you think im happy?
i've had enough
usually it is my understanding or belief that my true friends and family will love me no matter who i am, how i look or what i do. but for some reason i dont believe that anymore. my family [[parents and brother]] only love me when i achieve or when i put effort into my appearance or when i date someone who they approve of. the only member of my family who loves me no matter what is my grandpa and that's cause he has years and years of experience behind him and he KNOWS that the person on the inside is always going to be there. As for my friends, well, im not going to slag them off on some stupid internet website cause id much rather do it to their fucking faces, so if you get a call/visit from me and i go ape shit at you then you know why. okay?
hope you all have a drink for me tonight seeing as i have nothing to do and nobody to drink with. </3